Warning: this article is about, and includes, the public farewell blog post of a fellow warrior before undergoing euthanasia. It is gut-wrenching and very difficult to read without an emotional storm and some serious understanding. This article has the link to Anne’s article at the bottom.
Why am I sharing it?
Because it is a real issue that occurs in our community way more often then people like to discuss or think about. Anne also has a message that needs to get out to warriors, those that love us, those that want to help us, and those that are supposed to help us (the professionals who have the job of helping discover the why, how, and ins and outs of our conditions as well as ways to help us live with them until we can cure them).
Some people think we fake our issues or overplay them. Some people want to remove different avenues of relief and even research. Some people do not understand the immense and heavy feelings of being trapped and tortured in one’s own body day after day. Even more, some think that those who are fighting, writing, begging for help and relief can’t be doing that bad if they have the strength and ability to be vocal (I have faced this discrimination with my own writings and websites). This is, by no means, the case.
It doesn’t matter if you can blog daily or make calls or if you are hiding in your bed. It doesn’t matter if you look like a movie star or a complete mess. It doesn’t matter if you are on medication or not, use therapy or not, use CBD or THC, opiates, or if you are unable to have any medical care or are able to have access to any care.
You are a warrior. Our battle has no clear end. The fields we fight on are shrouded in a fog of unknowing and filled with traps and pitfalls. We may be up or we may be down. We can be crawling on our bellies, slowing down, or rising to our feet to press forward again. Some of us have contemplated the days where we can’t go on. Some have had days where they have taken the first of their last steps. And it is a reality of living with medical conditions that debilitate us in ways that many may not understand.
Suicide is a touchy topic. Euthanasia, the legal practice of assisted suicide, is becoming more prominent for much younger people due to certain illnesses that make life unbearable to endure. Those who take such routes are living in excruciating pain and are no longer able to function in any semblance of normalcy. It is a process that requires a lot of thought and consideration and is not taken lightly.
Anne Ortegren was a Swedish activist for ME/CFS. She suffered from the diseases as well as a multitude of other severely debilitating issues. Recently, Anne released a blog post, her final letter to the world, before undergoing self-euthanasia at a clinic in Sweden. The article linked below is written by a friend of hers and includes her final blog post. The friend and article writer had the letter edited with the help of someone knowledgeable on the psychology of suicides to make sure some of the wording didn’t spawn more suicides. It is something that occurs sometimes and is a worry for anyone who shares this kind of content. Anne explains her situation and story best and further information is in her article.
A note on the subject:
Although there are situations where one may be at such a critical and unbearable position in their life, it is highly encouraged and begged that you seek advice from places and people that can help before making any kind of decision if you have reached a point where you are considering suicide. Please, please, talk to someone and discuss your thoughts and decisions.
Suicide crisis lines in the U.S.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – Suicide prevention telephone hotline funded by the U.S. government. Provides free, 24-hour assistance. 1-800-273-TALK (8255). (National Suicide Prevention Lifeline)
IMAlive – Toll-free telephone number offering 24-hour suicide crisis support. 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433). (Kristin Brooks Hope Center)
The Trevor Project – Crisis intervention and suicide prevention services for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and questioning (LGBTQ) youth. Includes a 24/7 hotline: 1-866-488-7386.
SAMHSA’s National Helpline – Free, confidential 24/7 helpline information service for substance abuse and mental health treatment referral. 1-800-662-HELP (4357). (SAHMSA)
txt4life – Suicide prevention resource for residents of Minnesota. Text the word “LIFE” to 61222 to be connected to a trained counselor. (txt4life.org)
Suicide crisis lines worldwide
Crisis Centers in Canada – Locate suicide crisis centers in Canada by province. (Canadian Association for Suicide Prevention)
Befrienders Worldwide – International suicide prevention organization connects people to crisis hotlines in their country.
IASP – Find crisis centers and helplines around the world. (International Association for Suicide Prevention).
International Suicide Hotlines – Find a helpline in different countries around the world. (Suicide.org)
Samaritans UK – 24-hour suicide support for people in the UK and Republic of Ireland (call 116 123). (Samaritans)
Lifeline Australia – 24-hour suicide crisis support service at 13 11 14. (Lifeline Australia)
Click below for the last but lasting message of a fellow warrior. Farewell, Anne. May you hurt no more and finally find peace.